7 Ways I Screwed up my Life…

I was trying to think of what to write this week.  I know that I don’t have to write a post but it’s also, kind of fun. It has been another rough week because I’m short on patience and quick to anger.  I’ve gotten angry with Jesus more than I like to admit and for what?? I have EVERYTHING to be thankful for…yet again, in my weakness and selfishness and in the tough moments; I continually forget all that he has given me.  I was reminded of a Bible verse during a blog or a podcast somewhere but I can’t remember where I read it. I am probably taking it out of context because I’m definitely not a theologan . Is that a word?  Here it is …

2 Corinthians 12 8-10

⁸ About this, I have three times pleaded with the Lord that it might leave me;

⁹ but he has answered me, ‘My grace is enough for you: for power is at full stretch in weakness.’ It is, then, about my weaknesses that I am happiest of all to boast, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me;

¹⁰ and that is why I am glad of weaknesses, insults, constraints, persecutions and distress for Christ’s sake. For it is when I am weak that I am strong.

That verse is comforting to me.   I am very weak.  Time for my seven quick takes of how I screwed up my life….so I can again…boast in my weaknesses..  Seriously, don’t do these.

1.  I didn’t care about highschool . I was going down the wrong path…  I was worried about drinking, parties, boys and sleep.  I wish I was more focused.  I  wish that I was a nicer and less self involved person.   I wish to apologize to anyone I may have hurt. I wish I had more confidence. I wish that I got good grades.  I also wish that I was part of sports and/or activities and actually tried to succeed and didnt quit everything .

2.   I became a teenage unwed mother.   This actually turned into a great blessing because my daughter has helped me to become a better person and still does.  She is amazing.   I do wish that I would’ve waited though and did things the “old fashioned way” because now  I can understand, exactly WHY it’s God’s plan for marriage and THEN the baby.  However, with age comes wisdom right??

3 . I had very little to no faith when I was younger.  I was in mortal sin for many years .  Once again, I can look back now and see how this has affected my life .

4.  I wish that we would’ve slowed things down with our relationship and life in general. I never really thought things through carefully when I was younger.  We hit the milestones fast and in the wrong order.  I was pregnant with my son when I got married at 22 . I was also working part time and in college full-time. This put a lot of strain on us.  My son is amazing (thanks be to God) despite of me .

5.  I wish that I took my pre-marital prep and marriage vows more seriously . I didn’t take them seriously at all .   I just felt like it  was just another hoop to jump through.  I love(d) my husband.  I wanted to get married but I never really took the huge commitment seriously or anything that it entailed.  I just treated it like a piece of paper or a formality.  We could have and SHOULD have made God a priority in our marriage vows and in our marriage at that time and in LIFE.

6 . I wish I put more effort into planning my actual wedding day . I didn’t really care for some reason on how it went and didnt make many decisions regarding it . I kind of let other people run it .

7.  I wish that we did as much as possible to pay off our student loan debt as soon as possible.  That would have helped SO much . I never really thought about money or how to manage it….I still struggle with it .

 

I could probably think of at least 300 more but I will stop here…🤣

Obviously, my kids did not screw up my life.  In fact, my life IS NOT screwed up now because God can make good things out of our human weaknesses .  So kudos to all the parents that make stupid decisions like I did or currently do (like me) but STILL continue to strive to do better! Our Lord can make things great despite of us.  I realized, that without God, I could have gone down a totally different path . That is why I need him then and NOW.

 

Check out Kelly’s and other other blogs linking up this week here….Great post to read before buying gifts