I turned this blog into something that wasn’t working for me. I thought of it as a way to blog about family life. I thought that I could have a cute family blog with pictures and updates and it would be a scrapbook of our lives. Even if it was only there so that my kids could follow it since I don’t actually make scrapbooks… That is fine. A blog for just those reasons is great but it just…was…not..working. I would keep putting of making updates because it was too difficult. I found it too time consuming to remember and post all the updates. It was too draining to come up with a way to keep it short but explanatory and somewhat interesting. I was not invested in it and that is very telling by my work but that is what I thought I had to do for a blog. Why?? Why did I make those rules??
Why can’t I just create a blog with just my thoughts?
Why can’t I have a blog that is almost like a journal?
Why do I try to force myself into a mold of something that I am not?
I am a complete mess. Actually I am forgetful, disorganized, cranky, impatient and tired. Oh so very, tired.
I decided today that I don’t care how the blog “looks” or how it “feels” or if it fits into a mold that I had envisioned. This blog is going to be whatever it is going to be.
If I want to update then I will. If I don’t, I won’t. I will probably share more of my chaotic thoughts that don’t make sense..and that is okay. This blog is for ME. Writing out my thoughts helps to clarify them. I hope you will stay and join me. I hope you will comment and tell me your thoughts. If you find this too boring, that’s fine too. There are MANY others that have perfected their blogs and are great. You have to find what works for you just as much as I have to do what works for me.
Carry on, courage! God is with us. St. John Bosco
What are YOUR thoughts today??